I have to keep reminding myself, everytime my parents take those day trips now, it’s for the church plant. reality is so tough. My whole family is just doing what we have to do this 2012 , for me it’s to finish my O levels. I’m super super scared for 2013, even though it’s so far, I need to start making decisions and preparing myself now. It’s scary not knowing at all what’s going to happen. Basically everything I was planning since the beginning of 2011 is now all gone. I can’t control my life, and I knew all my plans were going to be gone soon.